Day Two One Slip

Yeah, day 2 One Slip. I read something online and a bit of a panic swept over me. Whenever that feeling would happen, I did what I'd done for almost twenty years- I lit up.


Yesterday was completely smoke-free. Wow, how wonderful that was! Today, I sorta smoked a cigarette. Half of it, I didn't inhale, half I did. Nicotine buzz? No, didn't happen. Although, when I was done with that cigarette, the taste in my mouth was so gross. I immediately went and brushed my tongue with minty tooth gel. Then when I returned to the keyboard, I noticed this smell from my fingers-

YUK! Yeah, I immediately washed my hands.


What triggered the panicky feeling I got? I'm not going to release that just yet. suffice to say, I recognised it right away. Now I need to develope a counter attack to that feeling...